The violence 

On Wednesdays, we have a class on marketing research. In that class we always begin with what all do we have to discuss, In terms of news, happenings in the world. This Wednesday, no one wanted to bring up the mass shooting in Vegas. One non American did. The professor immediately said unfortunately we will never know why this happened.

We won’t? Are you sure? Gun control is a major problem in this country. How can a person own 40 something guns and no one knows about it? Apparently the government is keeping tabs on people, there is so much data being constantly collected. But no one bothered to keep a record of how many guns are licensed to one person?
America can not call itself a world leader when it is clearly lacking in certain basic issues. Even underdeveloped countries have gun control laws. I think it’s time to think clearly about the consequences, don’t you? How many more shootings have to take place before the government makes a call?

Also, if it were a person of a different race, everyone would be quick to judge. But because the shooter was American, all Americans are baffled as to how a genuine person could do this.

Logic goes out the window.


The Interview

So, I had a recent interview where I “pulled a superwoman”, as someone told me. I basically heard about it and rushed over as I was super excited for the opportunity to even interview. I guess if I act like that for every interview I’d have the same result as this one – I got it! Just a while ago I checked my email and it’s true!

That made me think..

What all can I talk about in an interview? They ask the same boring questions every time but do I have an answer to those questions ingrained in my soul which makes me honest yet distinct at the same time? You’d think by the age of 25, a person would have this figured out. Well, I wish.

Anyhow, these are my thoughts, Cause I’m still getting to know me:

What are my weaknesses?

This. This question burns a hole in my head because you can’t be a 100 percent honest and still come out as a qualified candidate. But I found some answers:

1. I can’t not participate

Allow me to explain.
In one of my management classes as a grad student, we were given an in-class project where the class was divided into groups and one of the group members was handed a piece of paper, which meant that they were the team leader and had to follow the instructions on the paper without sharing it with the team. The task was to make a structure of sorts with nothing more than paper cards (3×5 in size) and paper clips to hold up a book which easily weighed 500gms.
Oddly enough, my instruction was to be a laissez faire leader, which basically means to not participate and let things take their course. I struggled to say the least. I would occasionally get up and contribute as much as possible. But, the person regulating this exercise would give me the stink eye. My team ended up thinking that I was being lazy and that made it even worse for me. Our structure didn’t make it even 3 seconds.

That brought me to this conclusion – This is the type of manager I am not. This weakness can be subdued slowly and gradually by working with a good team, where it’s a learning experience for everyone.

2. I re-evaluate my decisions

I look back a lot more than I look forward. Probably not the best thing for a future manager to say. But here’s how I look at it –  At Least I know that. I have started working on it. I looked at the reasons for this repeated deed and sought solutions. I came to the realisation that If I am satisfied enough with the reasons to support my decisions, I can make it work for me. Step-by-step, I make my move to conquer my own world.

That’s It. I am perfect otherwise.

Mic Drop.

Good, right? I feel like it’s decent enough to say in an interview. Most importantly, It’s mine and not from a website. It’s personal experience. You can rip off my data here or actually sit for a few minutes and think about your own life. You’ll get there and it’ll feel great.

Where do I see myself in 5 years? 10 years?

As much as I’d like to reply – lying on the floor surrounded by a 100 puppies cuddling me to death.

I have to come up with a socially as well as professionally acceptable answer.

So, I say.. a Brand manager in 5. A creative director in 10. They say, that’s all? I say, I’m a realist.

Also, it’s about what truly makes you happy and not saying that work doesn’t. But I believe in balance. So, I leave space in my life to grow and expand as a human being. We all have limited time, as it is a scarce resource. We must use it well.

What’s your ultimate goal in life?

I heard this on the radio one day, “Good is the enemy of Great”. Some celebrity said that. But it went with my ideology to keep improving yourself. Always go a step further. We studied “Kaizen”, continous improvement in grad school. That’s my goal in life to keep being better than myself – every day.

Well kids, as much as I’d like to chat more. I have to leave you at this.

I hope it made for an interesting read.


I will be back


Come on now!
I’m sure you might have thought about this. Why are we here? Part of a bigger plan, a web of intertwined lives where each life affects the other one? Maybe.
We’ve all seen time traveling movies where if one thing changes in the past, it leads to a completely different outcome – a domino effect or butterfly effect.

I have been thinking about that recently. Here’s another thing you should know about me – I am a dreamer. When I say that I don’t mean in a MLK way, I mean it in a procrastinating-day-dreamer way. So, here I am wondering, what would have happened if I could go back in Time to the year 2008, knowing what I know now, relive every moment and enjoy every person as I may have missed out on some experiences due to my mistakes and fears. Ah! believe me I can do it! I can go all the way back and change my whole story.

To go back to that first time I saw my first boyfriend, with all my best girlfriends and that one best guy friend whom I don’t talk to anymore because we hurt each other too much.
To working on myself, my future, you know. I could have gone to a better college and then a better B school. Met different people, maybe better than the ones who hurt me and brought me down.

To make sure my family stayed together and no one makes the mistake which made us all fall apart. To stay away from my next boyfriend, if I would have ever even met him or to tell him everything that I know because somehow, he’s my confidant. He’d be seriously creeped out though. He’d probably have a different future as well.

I wish, I could see a glimpse of it. Even if only in my dreams. I wish I could dream it. My dreams come true you know. They call it deja-vu but it doesn’t feel like it has happened before, because I know that I saw it in my dreams.

Anyhow, If I am to make it to a point in the future where I have access to such tech, I am going to have to survive now.

I will be back


So here we go, I am born!

Nah..! it’s 25 years too late. That’s right. That’s the first thing you should know.
I am 25 and Sumedha is my name. But i prefer Sam, cause hopefully then you can’t butcher the beloved name given to me by my parents that was decided upon due to it including their initials.

Weird right? Just giving all of this information away. Just like that. Afterall that is half the appeal of certain things, like ‘Doctor Who’ – where the main mystery is the name of the protagonist.

Well the fact is that i need you to know me. I do. More than anything, this blog has been created to represent a virtual list of all my wishes. Seems odd, doesn’t it? No, i am not dying of a serious illness nor do i have people after my life. Also, for the creative ones – i can not predict the future or my death. Although sometimes i like to believe i can.
I have been keeping a journal  since 2004. Not very sincerely though. Note to self and to anyone who listens: Never buy a journal which is originally a planner. Waste of paper for the perfectionist and  OCD sufferers.

Everyone at one point or another must think about these serious life decisions. About that question which every interview pertains and every interviewee would like to refrain from.

“Tell me about yourself..”

I thought about the perfect response once. But me being who I am – Forgot soon enough.
Do you see why i need to keep a record?

I have notes typed in/ scribbled on everything i can find.
That’s just how i function.
But then, who am I? What do i prefer and in a time of crisis what or who would i turn towards? I need to figure these things out and make sure everyone knows that too.
When i need to make a decision and i am not present, someone needs to think: WWSD?

And then remember.. oh we know!..It’s in the stupid blog! (Excuse my language kids).

So here’s the first wish..
I want to be buried and have a tree planted over me.
It doesn’t matter what country, what island or what plane I am on. Don’t worry about transporting my dead body or who all will attend the funeral.
Just bury me in the nature and make sure a tree sprouts out of my grave with it’s roots right besides my limbs.

Remember. Always.
I wish to give back to nature. In my whole life, If i never plant a tree or save one. This is what my true payment shall be.

I will be back